The Distance

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The empty spaces here on our beds
The spaces between our fingers
And blank spaces in our pictures
is where we both belong

With wavering hearts
Shy smiles, sweaty palms
and slurred words
We exchange our “I like you”s

Our many calls
that’s filled with laughter and sadness
Nervous faces on screen
with soft gazes and darken cheeks
We share our deepest thoughts

With 17,997 km between us
Lack of money
and expensive plane flights
We made heart felt promises to keep strong

For the first time in our lives
We both experience something-
Something that we both never believed in
Excited yet scared we grabbed hold of it with both hands

For the day will come
when we no longer need to create memories from a far
When we’ll be in each others arms
Days will be much brighter
With new memories to make

Until then
It’s us against
The Distance….

~ J.R

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It’s Okay

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I was really bored when I wrote this. It’s random and may sound a little stupid but I decided to share it anyways.

It’s okay to feel lost and hopeless
Unloved, unwanted and shattered
in a world that has so much to offer yet so much to take
It’s okay to cry and smile
to be angry, excited or bored
There’s just so many sides to a person that is left unexplored
It’s okay to not be okay
To throw things, to scream
To let your voice be heard 
It’s okay to be lonely
Not everyone enjoy the company of others
It’s okay to be a little weird
Being normal was so last year
It’s okay to be scared of spiders, dogs, cats or even lizards
Everyone has something that scares them
It’s okay to be you
Being someone’s clone only leads to misery
It’s okay to have weird habits like sucking your finger
Screw all the judging eyes, I’m sure they have worse habits
It’s okay to love meat and hate vegetables- even the opposite
It’s okay if you like talking to random things
Some people will judge you
but it’s okay
That’s life
And it’s okay

~ J.R

Sleepless Nights

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She tossed and turned under the burning covers, throwing it off with a loud sigh as thoughts of the past, present and future filled her mind.

The past? She can’t run away from. It hunted her whether she was awake or asleep. She could hear the voices screaming at her and hollow eyes staring her down. She panics for awhile, deep breathes “Inhale..Exhale” she tells herself over and over.

The present? She had many ‘friends’ and families yet she always felt alone. Whenever she was happy, angry, excited or even sad nobody cared. She couldn’t really turn to anyone about anything. She end up crumbling in her own shadow, lost and unloved. Is she really not loved? Even a little? Maybe if she kissed the cold air which wraps itself around her, comforting her and acknowledging her. Maybe then, everyone’s attention would be on her even for a second….a second? She would already be far gone.

The future? That she knows nothing of. Will she still be trapped in the cage of her own thoughts or would she be free? Free to laugh honestly and share in the joys of others. Will she be loved? There’s so many questions and no answers.

Black scrawny fingers shakingly made its way into messy hair. Lids tightly squeezing against each other. Again, a loud sigh escaped her lips, eyes open and now focused on the glowing ball outside her window.

“Another sleepless night…”

Having a Writer’s Block

Since lately, I’ve been having a little trouble posting things and then it hit me that I was having a writer’s block and I was like, “OMG NUUU WAY!!” (ha-ha). Anyways, I know it’s normal for people to have writer’s block but being someone who constantly have ideas or you know….I’m a little sad about it. Most times, it’s not about having lack of new ideas to post but it’s having ideas on what to post but not being able to put it all down in words. This is like my biggest problem. I have so many drafts like it’s not even funny. They are either half done or just done but lack something and sounds off or I’m just not satisfied with what I wrote. I don’t know, I mean this blog is where I can talk about the things I like or dislike maybe, or maybe talk about how my day went or my plans for tomorrow, the future and so on. Yet I find it a little hard to do that or maybe I’m just lazy (ha-ha)….nah I’m not.
                                                                    
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So like I’ve sat down and I’ve thought about what I wanted to do and what I don’t want to do…and I came up with a schedule and I thought “Hey! I should have done this from the beginning *sings One Ok Rock’s The Beginning*” because if I did, I wouldn’t really be having this much problem. Again, it’s normal for people to go through this. I don’t normally do the whole schedule thing like everyone since I never needed to but I guess it’s okay to try it and see how it works for me. But the last time I remember following a schedule was for school and that was just…..school.

So I’ll ensure to do at least two or three post a week. I’m still fixing up a bit so I’m not really sure how much I want to do as yet but I think three sounds good….yeahhhhhhh. 😀

That’s all~ 🙂

BAD BAD BAD BAD!!!

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*inhale and exhales slowly* So it’s out and I’m here with it on replay because I’m BAD like that. I saw that a lot of people were saying stuff like “Woolliment you’re really taking a BIG risk for choosing Bad as the title and I hope you know what you’re doing”, “Woolliment is using SM style” , “I don’t know what I feel towards this concept let’s wait until its fully out” etc. For me, Woolliment isn’t using SM or any other company’s style. If you want originality and stuff, I’d say Woolliment. Also I love the idea that they push their artist out of their comfort zone letting them try new things. Woolliment knows what they’re doing people!!

I don’t even know what to say because I’m so speechless right now. Sungkyu has been my crush since day one and I have to hand it to him…..HE IS SO FREAKING HOT!!! It’s like he keeps getting hot and hotter my poor heart can’t deal anymore. And let’s talk about his vocals which is off the roof and this song completely just blew me away. Hoya and Dongwoo are the rappers of INFINITE and always will be, but lets just stop and appreciate their sweet vocals even if it lasted for a short while and Dongwoo‘s awesome rap. I have a thing for rappers who can sing. Honestly it wouldn’t surprise me if the other members could rap since INFINITE seems like a well rounded group. Their last album that came out contained the song, Diamond, which had both boys singing instead of rapping. Many people where saying stuff like “OMG Dongwoo hit a note!”, “They should let Hoya and Dongwoo sing more they sound so good!” etc. Honestly, Sungyeol who barely had enough screen time or lines in a lot of their songs got a fair amount of lines and screen time. I’m a little satisfied and I hope in the future he’ll get more. His voice is really soothing and nice. Woohyun as always have been awesome and just like Sungkyu, his voice is amazing. Sungjong is just too beautiful for a guy, I always feel crappy looking at him (ha-ha). His voice, like Sungyeol, is nice and soothing and need more lines too!! Myungsoo/L…..mhm, I’m in-like with this guy XD he screams perfect and for all those people who says “Infinite would be better without him and he can’t sing” go check yourself.

What I honestly think about the song? It’s different from the kind of songs we usually get. This was kind of more on the hip hop side which totally suits them. The song is very catchy and makes you want to just get up and dance along. When a song is really good, I normally catch on to the lyrics really quick and let me tell you, I was singing this Bad boy on the second replay not 100% but I song a lot of lines. My mom was singing the chorus and that says something XD. I think they totally killed this song and this was definitely bad arse. I love it~

I recommend you check out the full album, Fifth Mini-Album Reality, which contains some really awesome tracks besides Bad.

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Track List:
01. Betting
02. Bad
03. Moonlight
04. 발걸음
05. 마주보며 서 있어
06. 러브레터
07. 엔딩을 부탁해

Overall, I think this comeback was really good and I’m sure the boys worked very hard for us fans. I am so looking forward to their dance practice video as well as their live performances. Please show many love and support towards the boys, guys. Well, that’s the end of my senseless rambling.

What do you think of INFINITE’s Comeback? 🙂